an amount that can change my life forever is all I ever ask for... and yet its so hard to seek for help ... :(
where ever can I beg to raise..$2,500.00.... obligations are so overdue and people are stressing me out.... my heart is complaining now my mind is wondering how long I will survive this world... am I going to die without that feeling of financial freedom and happiness...
some people just wont stop... pushing me down... I would like to believe that no one can made me inferior unless I let them made me feel.... but its so hard to do...
feeling so bad cant eat felt like throwing up... I dont know why Im not feeling well nowadays.... chest pain and all... some say I need to go see a doctor but how can I do that... when I dont have the means to pay for the doctor and medicines...
I am an I-30... petitioned by my mom last August 2004.... I was hoping to find a way to expedite the processing of our papers and hoping that I can bring along my kids too... and those $2,500.00 that I wanted to raise is for the debt that I will settle here... My parents arent rich but being with them and my siblings I and hopefully my kids ill feel happy and contented... someoen who can help me raise my kids well, and provide all the love that we need.
Another thing that bugs me.... is my eagerness to be with my family in US.... I hope anyone can help me . to expedite the processing of my papers... I hope me and my kids be with my family so soon... since my parents and all my siblings are in US... I have no one else to turn to here... most of my relatives thought I was a disgrace for being left by the father of my kids... without considering asking me why and what happened they sided on the kids father... which hurt me so much... the pain and humiliation ... causes me to loose all the confidence I have... all that was left is my self respect... but the scars can sometime open up to a wound whenever I was mocked which I believe is so unfair... but I can never do anything about it. Past it is but the lessons and pains are still here to mend. I believe I can only so that when I am with my family and kids.. For they always give me hope and positive advice and strength to go on with this life. I am just 31 years old but been through this life with so much agony and failures. I hope someday I'll myself on that stair going to that success and keep it.
I believe there is nothing wrong hoping for the good stuff specially if these are not luxurious, this is just a debt payment that has been eating my life, my time, my emotions, for all my income goes into it. Giving birth alone.. shouldering all the expenses alone on my 2nd child... turned my life this way... but Im not regretting my daughters for they are both very intelligent and sweet kids... having them enrolled in school ... provided with home,shelter and clothing is all I hope for... a goal I was aiming for when I thought of a family... the only thing that never happened is having a father to keep this family complete... but having these kids made me a proud and happy mother. Of course except for our money problems... I could never ask for more when it come to familya nd the love we hav for each other.
my health deteriorating... on the edge of losing my job... :( Im so eager for a good change in my life... please someone help me. I promise it wont go to waste.
what can I do raise that $2,500.00.. I cant and would never sell myself ... I was hoping for some good samaraitans that can help me conquer this big problem I am facing...
I wanted to be good for my kids, I wanted to be a good provider but I know I can never do that since my income was never enough for household bills and education, food and shelter expense. Debts that haunt me felt like Im running away from some monster that will eat me.. there fore losing my right and chance and time to be with my kids that I love so much :(
Just this $2,500.00 thing will really make a great change in my life. A new start that I promise to maintain debt free ...
im so stressed and depress today that hypertension is acting up :(
